square proportional to its cube.

I’m beginning to realize that many of my negative emotions, eventually becomes anger towards the object/person in which i seemingly “decided” was at fault.However unconscious my “choice” may be I could always understand the reason why the respective parties are the one to blame.I think it is unfair of me to judge people according to these standards but sometimes,i just feel so helpless.The feeling of becoming irrelevant,redundant and to a certain extent,unrecognized, creates an immense anger at myself.For not being strong enough,for not smart enough,for not planning,for not putting in the extra effort,for wasting my talent,for losing composure,for allowing others to get the better of me,all of which makes me feel like I’ve let myself down.Maybe,just maybe i seem to come off as pissed all the time because i never reach a point of resolution,(regardless of discipline) where i stay long enough to indulge in my successes,so much so that i become a much happier person.I never want to.The anger might be a deep-seated,sick motivation to better myself.

Whatever.To introspect with a cleared mind,might be so much better.Don’t mind me and my incoherent thoughts.

I need sleep.